[where]

This is where I am --
This is where I should not
be. Treading treacherous waters
completely alien to me. In the
end it was my decision,
no one else's to be here.
As I choke on the waves
and call out your name, looking
for who to blame, another wave
crashes, pushing me deeper
and deeper still, into my mind, my
own oblivion. This is where I stay.

This, this is where I am.