That I'll find myself a reason to care.
Maybe I'll awake and realize that my
Misgivings were simple premonitions,
Pissed away by a self-preserving and
Self-destructive impulse inside of me.
Tomorrow -- A day I can't imagine --
If I was supposed to be something,
It isn't supposed to be tomorrow, it
Was forgotten just like yesterday.
Just like today. Just like every other
Day that my eyes refuse to open.
Yesterday -- I said that I was sorry --
But I'm only sorry that I didn't hurt
You sooner; letting myself relish in
This ceremonial bloodletting, embracing,
by the ounce, every bit of pain you
Let me show you of this world.
Today --Today I tried to live, again --
Only to find that I've lost the plot,
I'm really not the man I wish to be;
Sad, brittle, broken and lost without
my paddle -- the paddle I cast into the
Sea, so why won't you just pity me?
Someday -- It'll be the day that I realize --
That I'll need to love myself to care.
Maybe I'll awake and realize that I
Already have, always have, that the
World just forgot to embrace what I
Was -- Just whatever they weren't.
